maybe.
i keep hearing what a disappointment i am to you. i cant take it much more, so here goes...
to you i am your hero,
to you i am your let-down.
to you i am your goal,
to you i am you fear.
to me i am just surviving.
i dont want to pretend
pretend to have it all figured out.
pretending is lying.
i am not a liar.
i am not your hero
i am not your fear
let me go and
let me survive.
if you can't be happy for me, then maybe we weren't friends to begin with. im sorry i have been such a let down for you.
it is time we find a new way because this one is killing me.
good bye to you and to the times we have shared.
this is dedicated to my new life. the new life that i am hopefully going to be me and thrive in.
wish me well or leave me be.
sorry, i needed to have a personal venting session tonight. i didn't know where else to turn. forgive me for not being more GLBT focused in this post, but let us not forget that i may be gay but that does not take up my whole existence. tonight, i am saying good-bye to the people who cannot or will not wish me well. i am starting fresh and i hope that you will join me, without explanation, in dreaming of the possibilities for this new life.
trust me when i say, it is needed.
peace to you.
yours freely,
SH
